The days after leaving my first job

Recently had been really free
Free from routine job in TG
Free from doing house chores

However i dun feel good
I feel tensioned with the upcoming job
and i cant bring up the spirit to clear myself from the mess and prepare for the next
obviously, i was not suited with this short break :(

i wonder why
coz i tot i will enjoy this break from my routine
but i can barely sleep well everyday
and i am moody, and not able to think well
as if i have lose the positive "aura" i used to have in TG

haha, i wonder: am i missing my old job?

most of the days have been wasted, totally unproductive and not relaxing though
and i rushed to SG twice for room hunting, totally not efficient and wasted money

becoz of bad mood, i din enjoy my time with my parents too, which i really feel guilty one of the big reason i came back earlier is to accompany my parents more ...but i think i din do well in that

Ah...anxious, worrying again...the old, bad me :(

Just a few days ago, i had remind of the wise words from a very respected manager of me
life is about happiness
there will be no point to live when u pursue so many things while keeping yourself unhappy
he is right, the purpose of life must be there always
always repent, always think about what's the purpose of doing something
that will mostly keep us including me from being negative

after a good sleep, and a cup of black coffee, and when i came back from SG for second time
i am now feeling much better
thinking back, i see the importance of action again
when u r worry, and duno where to start off
calm down, coz things definitely is difficult at the beginning and there will be times u duno wat to do
just keep doing it, keep doing it
most importantly keep your faith and attitude positive
dun ever dwell on it too much, dun doubt coz its common
and dun compare too much, keep doing it and it will improve after times


oh bad mood, i find it difficult to deal with you when my life style has a sudden change
from having many people close with me, to a place where no or less people concern me
loneliness breeds negative thought, its very true
to make it worse, problems hits me one after another and im crippled by negative thoughts

for this, calm your mind, try to FEEL the religion and the grateful feeling inside out
remember how i had got to here? keep humble, keep grateful to everyone, every incident, keep healthy
remembering parents, family, friends or anyone who has talk something to me that in some way or another brings me here

physically, eat well, sleep well, and move more
mentally, be positive, be humble, be calm, be grateful of wat has happened
and always remember the purpose of life, work to improve to be happier, not to be more miserable

with love, peace and joy,
kayne ;)