those which doesnt kill makes us stronger!

i was listening to hebe's new song, struck by a line in the song 死不了 就还好
n i tot of wat melissa once wrote in facebook comment : those which doesnt kill makes us stronger!!
wat a stunning phrase
once inject this to your heart when you are weak, u will feel alive again!

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Few days ago i was chatting with a fren via msn
only to knw about her predicament, whc was surprising cos she never mentioned to me (maybe we r not very close before, lol)
but luckily she already pull thru it, which i think isnt easy
being a lone ranger can be difficult to stay motivated all the time
especially everything, everyone around seem so discouraging to you
you cried everyday, wake up with fear of facing a new day
it's understandable, coz i've been there before, being engulfed by emotion, live in darkness
i admire her courage, to cry to let out the bad emotion
and to find ways to handle her emotion better, n of cos that helps her to keep her job done better
finding her passion to LIVEmas a true soul

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i always think crying is not a bad way to release your fear, your sadness
take it positive          crying isnt a sign of weakness
as i believe we see clearer after we cry
take it positive          thats the side of fence where i choose to stand by
those who scolded u make u having better tolerance with evil tougue
those who fails you makes be more prepared next time
those that annoys you now make u realised what and who you really cherish in your life


Let go if you dun feel it belongs to you, hold tight if that is wat u shud cherish n wat u're pursuing


With love,
Ken

dreams II

Just browse through the job advertisement lisitng in mail box
so many, and I'm lazy to have a look
tired? yes
but i think lazy is the root cause why i choose to go FB and msn-ing, troll talking instead on jobs

sometime i ask myself, what's my direction
it's fine i stay here learn on handling problems, handling people
but how long should i stay here
ya, im afraid to step out coz i knw the pay might not be high, the life might be tougher
ha, pathetic, so timid at such a young age
after 3 ppl left since i moved in
wat's actually left is emptiness

time is late
tomorrow is another day
so routine, repetitive, and dull
some how my dreams are set
and dreams keep me alive, fuel me work my best to realised it
thts why when im struggling with boredom i think of my dreams
they have to realised! and even better, I will expand the list!

At the age of 30 years old

flew to 10 most wanted country across the world
became a fit metrosexual guy
having a memoir recording my life
having a soul devotion
play well a musical instrument
be good in a sports
find out wat i wanna do for the rest of my life
experienced the most fruitful engineering task
having 10 foreign country friends in my network

I'm suprise
to think that i had actually so many dreams!
it never actually formed in my life before
not until now when i wrote down
at this moment i knw, im not empty
i have dreams to power me!

God, lead me *wink

Dreams

it's another weary night

how many nights before were like this, tonight is no different than previous nights

tired....exhausted....sometime even stressed, depressed

i know i know

this is common 

as im fresh to this working world

it is common i find a bit hard to breath within this thin air around me

when i walk alone back from work   mostly along the dark alley

i feel insecure at times 

why im feeling this? should i be here? when should i go? where's my dream and courage?

questions that never been answered repeat in mind

i remind of my dream to travel around the world

sometime i think it is a silly dream...travel around world? i lack the money and time

and then i start to envy of pilots, fight attendants

reading blogs that travels around many places which i wish i have been there

if i never been here            my dreams will never been enlighten

being engineer, sorry i don't really feel i'm one at the moment, or maybe forever

where should i put myself, where i can feel happy? where i can be useful?

after years the answer is still not sought   and i continue to cheat myself   as a dumb

I need to find my courage hidden beneath myself      

to free myself from shyness and fear

to set myself free and go after my dream