wanna blog my feeling
coz i feel it is something which is worth to be recorded in my life
today is the forth day of my work, 5th day i stay in this new place
i must say, i miss u all...my parents, and some of my good friends
to my parents, i love you all for being such a great parents, accompany me all the way to here
and the moment i received the call from you yesterday, mum, u set me free from all the unhappiness
to my friends i knw from young, esp from TG, and been living with me under one roof for past one year
you all might not know but i really recall if the days with you all when i feel weak
the flash back really soothes my mind and take to me sweet dream these few nights
you all don't know, and even i also dun know before this, that you all have create such a good memory
which can be my strength when i recall at moment of despair
Ah, how fortunate I'm to have you all
It's just that I did not let you all know openly
but i blog it here, shows i truly wanna keep all these memories in mind
i dun wan to show off in FB, but the feeling of appreciation is deep in me and i reveal here privately
Being at a new place, what I stay on is my identity
take along what's good whenever i go
it tells me that i was living great in the past, and i will even treasure what i have in present
cherish every moment I am alive, and stay great with you all
let's do it together
with love,
kayne
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
The days after leaving my first job
Recently had been really free
Free from routine job in TG
Free from doing house chores
However i dun feel good
I feel tensioned with the upcoming job
and i cant bring up the spirit to clear myself from the mess and prepare for the next
obviously, i was not suited with this short break :(
i wonder why
coz i tot i will enjoy this break from my routine
but i can barely sleep well everyday
and i am moody, and not able to think well
as if i have lose the positive "aura" i used to have in TG
haha, i wonder: am i missing my old job?
most of the days have been wasted, totally unproductive and not relaxing though
and i rushed to SG twice for room hunting, totally not efficient and wasted money
becoz of bad mood, i din enjoy my time with my parents too, which i really feel guilty one of the big reason i came back earlier is to accompany my parents more ...but i think i din do well in that
Ah...anxious, worrying again...the old, bad me :(
Just a few days ago, i had remind of the wise words from a very respected manager of me
life is about happiness
there will be no point to live when u pursue so many things while keeping yourself unhappy
he is right, the purpose of life must be there always
always repent, always think about what's the purpose of doing something
that will mostly keep us including me from being negative
after a good sleep, and a cup of black coffee, and when i came back from SG for second time
i am now feeling much better
thinking back, i see the importance of action again
when u r worry, and duno where to start off
calm down, coz things definitely is difficult at the beginning and there will be times u duno wat to do
just keep doing it, keep doing it
most importantly keep your faith and attitude positive
dun ever dwell on it too much, dun doubt coz its common
and dun compare too much, keep doing it and it will improve after times
oh bad mood, i find it difficult to deal with you when my life style has a sudden change
from having many people close with me, to a place where no or less people concern me
loneliness breeds negative thought, its very true
to make it worse, problems hits me one after another and im crippled by negative thoughts
for this, calm your mind, try to FEEL the religion and the grateful feeling inside out
remember how i had got to here? keep humble, keep grateful to everyone, every incident, keep healthy
remembering parents, family, friends or anyone who has talk something to me that in some way or another brings me here
physically, eat well, sleep well, and move more
mentally, be positive, be humble, be calm, be grateful of wat has happened
and always remember the purpose of life, work to improve to be happier, not to be more miserable
with love, peace and joy,
kayne ;)
Free from routine job in TG
Free from doing house chores
However i dun feel good
I feel tensioned with the upcoming job
and i cant bring up the spirit to clear myself from the mess and prepare for the next
obviously, i was not suited with this short break :(
i wonder why
coz i tot i will enjoy this break from my routine
but i can barely sleep well everyday
and i am moody, and not able to think well
as if i have lose the positive "aura" i used to have in TG
haha, i wonder: am i missing my old job?
most of the days have been wasted, totally unproductive and not relaxing though
and i rushed to SG twice for room hunting, totally not efficient and wasted money
becoz of bad mood, i din enjoy my time with my parents too, which i really feel guilty one of the big reason i came back earlier is to accompany my parents more ...but i think i din do well in that
Ah...anxious, worrying again...the old, bad me :(
Just a few days ago, i had remind of the wise words from a very respected manager of me
life is about happiness
there will be no point to live when u pursue so many things while keeping yourself unhappy
he is right, the purpose of life must be there always
always repent, always think about what's the purpose of doing something
that will mostly keep us including me from being negative
after a good sleep, and a cup of black coffee, and when i came back from SG for second time
i am now feeling much better
thinking back, i see the importance of action again
when u r worry, and duno where to start off
calm down, coz things definitely is difficult at the beginning and there will be times u duno wat to do
just keep doing it, keep doing it
most importantly keep your faith and attitude positive
dun ever dwell on it too much, dun doubt coz its common
and dun compare too much, keep doing it and it will improve after times
oh bad mood, i find it difficult to deal with you when my life style has a sudden change
from having many people close with me, to a place where no or less people concern me
loneliness breeds negative thought, its very true
to make it worse, problems hits me one after another and im crippled by negative thoughts
for this, calm your mind, try to FEEL the religion and the grateful feeling inside out
remember how i had got to here? keep humble, keep grateful to everyone, every incident, keep healthy
remembering parents, family, friends or anyone who has talk something to me that in some way or another brings me here
physically, eat well, sleep well, and move more
mentally, be positive, be humble, be calm, be grateful of wat has happened
and always remember the purpose of life, work to improve to be happier, not to be more miserable
with love, peace and joy,
kayne ;)
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Goodbye and good luck to all of us ....
4th of Oct was my last day in TG
So many memories taking place within this one year after I graduate
most of them happened on people i knew in TG
Compare to the feeling of resistant i had at the beginning
I seriously missing the people now, their laughter and the things we did all the days in past
Work, eat, play, outing
We see each other from factory to hostel
And we talk and we jokes
Laughter was never ending that time
Now i have left
We might not be able to be that close in future
We have no chance to be with each other everyday anymore
Sorrow is deep in my heart, which i choose to cover it from knowledge of all
Not until the last moment i had ever stop to perform my duty, my job, and my part in the life of you all
I work, i laugh, i sing, i eat heartily, n i care
i cherish all the moments with u all, though i believe is a bit late to get actually get closer
u know who u are
my housemates, my colleagues of f2/9/11 and my superiors
love you all, thanks for such memory and bcoz of u all i am the person im now
with love,
kiong
So many memories taking place within this one year after I graduate
most of them happened on people i knew in TG
Compare to the feeling of resistant i had at the beginning
I seriously missing the people now, their laughter and the things we did all the days in past
Work, eat, play, outing
We see each other from factory to hostel
And we talk and we jokes
Laughter was never ending that time
Now i have left
We might not be able to be that close in future
We have no chance to be with each other everyday anymore
Sorrow is deep in my heart, which i choose to cover it from knowledge of all
Not until the last moment i had ever stop to perform my duty, my job, and my part in the life of you all
I work, i laugh, i sing, i eat heartily, n i care
i cherish all the moments with u all, though i believe is a bit late to get actually get closer
u know who u are
my housemates, my colleagues of f2/9/11 and my superiors
love you all, thanks for such memory and bcoz of u all i am the person im now
with love,
kiong
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
為自己的生命點一把火，讓生命發光發熱
常在想，我這樣寫著blog，怎麼寫法好像都差不遠、沒有什麽突破？看到別人寫的文章，我都很容易被文字感動，就不懂我寫的是否也已一樣？尤其是用英文寫的，常常都遇到詞窮的情況，寫出來的就更顯得空洞了。所以這一篇，不得不用華語來寫，因為我實在忍不住詞不達意的時候啦！！！
我的腦袋啊，每天都好像有東西煩惱
尤其是有一些決定需要我去做選擇時，我的思緒好像沒有停過，就像馬達一樣不斷跑著
跑到我誰也睡不好，吃也吃不好
精神上很累啊
最近煩的，還是工作上的老問題
我老是在煩惱自己的將來、自己的事業前途
所以每次需要做這種決定時，我都很煩，或者說是內心很憂鬱、煩躁
有時真的煩到我問自己爲什麽有那麼多煩惱而別人沒有跟我一樣的煩惱
弄到自己特別的累，有沒有意思？
其實，人生有很多路，走得瀟灑、有活力才是對的態度
畢竟不能握住全部，也不知道幾時會走，能擁有對自己和愛人重要的就够了
活著，就是爲了開心！
學會淡定的思考，而不是煩惱，就是開心與不開心的關鍵
不要為明天憂慮，憂慮從來不會使明天變得更好
困境是通往幸福的門，正面的能量就是開啟那扇門的力量，掉頭就走的話什麽都沒了！
相信自己
為自己的生命點一把火，讓生命發光發熱，就是這麼樣活著!
愛著
A kiong
我的腦袋啊，每天都好像有東西煩惱
尤其是有一些決定需要我去做選擇時，我的思緒好像沒有停過，就像馬達一樣不斷跑著
跑到我誰也睡不好，吃也吃不好
精神上很累啊
最近煩的，還是工作上的老問題
我老是在煩惱自己的將來、自己的事業前途
所以每次需要做這種決定時，我都很煩，或者說是內心很憂鬱、煩躁
有時真的煩到我問自己爲什麽有那麼多煩惱而別人沒有跟我一樣的煩惱
弄到自己特別的累，有沒有意思？
其實，人生有很多路，走得瀟灑、有活力才是對的態度
畢竟不能握住全部，也不知道幾時會走，能擁有對自己和愛人重要的就够了
活著，就是爲了開心！
學會淡定的思考，而不是煩惱，就是開心與不開心的關鍵
不要為明天憂慮，憂慮從來不會使明天變得更好
困境是通往幸福的門，正面的能量就是開啟那扇門的力量，掉頭就走的話什麽都沒了！
相信自己
為自己的生命點一把火，讓生命發光發熱，就是這麼樣活著!
愛著
A kiong
Sunday, July 24, 2011
July
it's July!
i cant really believe, i was graduated more than a year, and been working at my current place for a full year!
time goes without stopping for me, or anyone of us
the month of July, to me is like a long long month, 31 days but it seems like endless
few things in my mind actually
1. it marks a year i have been out to work
2. it marks i fail to seek better place within this whole year, shame on me =(
3. i am lost, despite the many dreams and many aspiration of my future, i cant see myself
So how?
Well, time still passed no matter what kind of emotion i had along the way
To actually realize this eternal fact can be even more worrying, but it can be enlightening too
somebody ask me a simple question recently, well, he is one of my superior
What kind of life you want?
Simple as that, but it really knock me down
Not that i do not have the answer, in fact i answer spontaneously in a way that i was being interviewed
sharp, fast and steady, as if im well prepared with the answer which i have been prepared
surprisingly, after i shoot my answer confidently of how well i imagine my life to be
he told me : to me, what i want is to be happy
stunned, a simple but awakening statement from him
that day, and a few days that follows
i was wondering, what exactly miss out in myself
i thought i was telling a perfect tales of my life map which will be envy by many people
5 years, 10 years, and so on, i though if i follow the way i plan, i will be successful living a good life
but i found that my plan is totally defenseless after that conversation
am i having not enough faith in my own plan and swayed by others?
i think not, things that goes wrong is my so-called planning, dreams, aspiration
it was all a perfectly sculptured body
nice-looking but it lacks the very fundamental element within the body --- the soul,
which makes it lifeless
And i was not happy with that
On the next day, i turn down the offer from another company, offering me a job in production of chemicals
i am not sure whether this a rational one
cos previously i though im so firm with strong reasons to switch
i though i had made up a firm decision to change
but deep down in me i found i am not feeling happy to leave
that's the soul which i'm missing, and i choose to stop that and find back my soul
that's what i can conclude in July
So August is coming
Haha I'm so happy with my birthday's coming
not really because im expecting anybody to wish me or celebrate with me
but im feeling particular happy of getting grown up to a better person
I'm glad through my journey i have met quite a number of inspiring people
from where i draw lessons and reflect myself
and from their stories im well aware the challenge on me is to live my own way and shine
Keep this up!
With love,
Kayne
i cant really believe, i was graduated more than a year, and been working at my current place for a full year!
time goes without stopping for me, or anyone of us
the month of July, to me is like a long long month, 31 days but it seems like endless
few things in my mind actually
1. it marks a year i have been out to work
2. it marks i fail to seek better place within this whole year, shame on me =(
3. i am lost, despite the many dreams and many aspiration of my future, i cant see myself
So how?
Well, time still passed no matter what kind of emotion i had along the way
To actually realize this eternal fact can be even more worrying, but it can be enlightening too
somebody ask me a simple question recently, well, he is one of my superior
What kind of life you want?
Simple as that, but it really knock me down
Not that i do not have the answer, in fact i answer spontaneously in a way that i was being interviewed
sharp, fast and steady, as if im well prepared with the answer which i have been prepared
surprisingly, after i shoot my answer confidently of how well i imagine my life to be
he told me : to me, what i want is to be happy
stunned, a simple but awakening statement from him
that day, and a few days that follows
i was wondering, what exactly miss out in myself
i thought i was telling a perfect tales of my life map which will be envy by many people
5 years, 10 years, and so on, i though if i follow the way i plan, i will be successful living a good life
but i found that my plan is totally defenseless after that conversation
am i having not enough faith in my own plan and swayed by others?
i think not, things that goes wrong is my so-called planning, dreams, aspiration
it was all a perfectly sculptured body
nice-looking but it lacks the very fundamental element within the body --- the soul,
which makes it lifeless
And i was not happy with that
On the next day, i turn down the offer from another company, offering me a job in production of chemicals
i am not sure whether this a rational one
cos previously i though im so firm with strong reasons to switch
i though i had made up a firm decision to change
but deep down in me i found i am not feeling happy to leave
that's the soul which i'm missing, and i choose to stop that and find back my soul
that's what i can conclude in July
So August is coming
Haha I'm so happy with my birthday's coming
not really because im expecting anybody to wish me or celebrate with me
but im feeling particular happy of getting grown up to a better person
I'm glad through my journey i have met quite a number of inspiring people
from where i draw lessons and reflect myself
and from their stories im well aware the challenge on me is to live my own way and shine
Keep this up!
With love,
Kayne
Monday, May 30, 2011
Good and bad
Recently i have been doing something good and something bad
good 1: I've started to pick up the habit of jogging, though it is limited to Sunday. I used to be unable to run for even 10 mins, but now i can slowly run for 30 min! well, i shud continue doing this, cos i really feel so good after running ^^
good 2: I've been starting my resume sending again. I lost my patience of doing so since i failed my recent job offer, but now i started back. Inspired by the spirit of jogging, i felt that my journey don't stop unless I've stop moving on. I have to keep doing my job searching, refine my steps from time to time, keep steady pace and keep enjoying the scenery along the way. for now, i refrain myself from being passive and complainer...keep running, keep my pace!
good 3: i have been keeping track on my healthy breakfast menu for some time, that's great! i slowly add in more protein in my breakfast, i hope i can take in more protein to help me gain a bit weight
good 4: i started to knock off on target time! i dun care whatever i was doing, i will let go of my work and leave on 6pm! no more 7pm or 8pm >.<
bad 1: i regret on my slow decision, i've lost a job because of this...why? i guess God is trying to teach me: slow people will lose what they want, and the worse is when u're overconfident of getting it!
bad 2: i'm totally out in earning money now! I din go for tuition teaching as i thought of long ago, my investment account has been inactive since i open it, and i din get any offer or even reply from whatever i've applied! And ever since i bought my car, there's basically nothing that cheers me up on my account figures...well, i am unhappy bcos of money again, everything is stagnant!
bad 3: im feeling stagnant in my work now. I did not set any target for my career, not to say arrange strategy for it. my life just go on and on, routine job on taking care of quality, meeting, discuss on ad-hoc issue, laughing around with colleagues....it's simple but it has no direction, i mean the personal one...what do i want to get from my current job? my direction = factory direction = increase output + improve consistent quality + utilities & material saving + process improvement ?? my god, why dun i sell myself to factory if it is like this!
for the good one, i will keep up, and makes my life happier, better
for the bad one, i shud be looking into it... my direction, my attitude and my financial/technical development
Continue the spirit of jogging, never lose track, never lose direction and never lose stamina and keep pace!
with love,
kayne
good 1: I've started to pick up the habit of jogging, though it is limited to Sunday. I used to be unable to run for even 10 mins, but now i can slowly run for 30 min! well, i shud continue doing this, cos i really feel so good after running ^^
good 2: I've been starting my resume sending again. I lost my patience of doing so since i failed my recent job offer, but now i started back. Inspired by the spirit of jogging, i felt that my journey don't stop unless I've stop moving on. I have to keep doing my job searching, refine my steps from time to time, keep steady pace and keep enjoying the scenery along the way. for now, i refrain myself from being passive and complainer...keep running, keep my pace!
good 3: i have been keeping track on my healthy breakfast menu for some time, that's great! i slowly add in more protein in my breakfast, i hope i can take in more protein to help me gain a bit weight
good 4: i started to knock off on target time! i dun care whatever i was doing, i will let go of my work and leave on 6pm! no more 7pm or 8pm >.<
bad 1: i regret on my slow decision, i've lost a job because of this...why? i guess God is trying to teach me: slow people will lose what they want, and the worse is when u're overconfident of getting it!
bad 2: i'm totally out in earning money now! I din go for tuition teaching as i thought of long ago, my investment account has been inactive since i open it, and i din get any offer or even reply from whatever i've applied! And ever since i bought my car, there's basically nothing that cheers me up on my account figures...well, i am unhappy bcos of money again, everything is stagnant!
bad 3: im feeling stagnant in my work now. I did not set any target for my career, not to say arrange strategy for it. my life just go on and on, routine job on taking care of quality, meeting, discuss on ad-hoc issue, laughing around with colleagues....it's simple but it has no direction, i mean the personal one...what do i want to get from my current job? my direction = factory direction = increase output + improve consistent quality + utilities & material saving + process improvement ?? my god, why dun i sell myself to factory if it is like this!
for the good one, i will keep up, and makes my life happier, better
for the bad one, i shud be looking into it... my direction, my attitude and my financial/technical development
Continue the spirit of jogging, never lose track, never lose direction and never lose stamina and keep pace!
with love,
kayne
Saturday, May 21, 2011
thanks to you, i had these words in my mind
there was this friend, who come into my life unexpected
we were colleagues
then slowly become good friend
it doesn't happen overnight...argh, im lazy to details on how it happens
its just that we become friends who can chat on almost everything
And then she left
to pursue her dream
I never felt sad for her leaving, but i was actually spending the best of time with her as colleague
I was surprise how happy I'm, full of blessing when she left and even become the MC of her farewell
this is the first time, i feel that im so mature
and thanks to her, i've grown a little bit more
Before she left, she brought some little souvenirs for some colleagues
and i got a bookmark
which i think she really understand wat im thinking of
as the words on the bookmark are just in time
maybe she wanna tell me in person but was hard to tell
but i could say, we are both ambitious Leo
pursuing dreams, cherish values of life
And we are doing it all the time, having faith, having patience to make it happen
And now i was chanting these words in my mind
Each time when i feel weak
Or even before i feel weak
I chant it, read it silently in each morning
just to keep the fire in heart lighting, warm my life out of coldness of reality
*Keep believing* That you are what it takes to make your dream a reality
*Keep staying positive" Knowing that you are in control of your life-that you have the ability within you to do anything
*Keep on trying*At every opportunity that comes by- accepting the challenges and learning along the way
*Keep Being*the beautiful person that you are- giving so much hope, love and joy to those around you.
I felt the strength within these words, do you?
And i notice the emphasize of "keep" which tell us these have to become a habit, not an action of once or twice
Thanks friend, I gotta make it my way!
With love,
Kayne
we were colleagues
then slowly become good friend
it doesn't happen overnight...argh, im lazy to details on how it happens
its just that we become friends who can chat on almost everything
And then she left
to pursue her dream
I never felt sad for her leaving, but i was actually spending the best of time with her as colleague
I was surprise how happy I'm, full of blessing when she left and even become the MC of her farewell
this is the first time, i feel that im so mature
and thanks to her, i've grown a little bit more
Before she left, she brought some little souvenirs for some colleagues
and i got a bookmark
which i think she really understand wat im thinking of
as the words on the bookmark are just in time
maybe she wanna tell me in person but was hard to tell
but i could say, we are both ambitious Leo
pursuing dreams, cherish values of life
And we are doing it all the time, having faith, having patience to make it happen
And now i was chanting these words in my mind
Each time when i feel weak
Or even before i feel weak
I chant it, read it silently in each morning
just to keep the fire in heart lighting, warm my life out of coldness of reality
*Keep believing* That you are what it takes to make your dream a reality
*Keep staying positive" Knowing that you are in control of your life-that you have the ability within you to do anything
*Keep on trying*At every opportunity that comes by- accepting the challenges and learning along the way
*Keep Being*the beautiful person that you are- giving so much hope, love and joy to those around you.
I felt the strength within these words, do you?
And i notice the emphasize of "keep" which tell us these have to become a habit, not an action of once or twice
Thanks friend, I gotta make it my way!
With love,
Kayne
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