Thursday, March 31, 2011

Sharing of my experience: secret to be happy!

Just got a strong feeling tonight, which makes me so eager to write down what I'm feeling. I don't wanna lose this feeling and if I do, i can read this again and hopefully I will get to the point " Oh! I experience this before!", haha

I'm not a Guru of life, but these things come to my mind again and again, and it comes to 6 points of ways how human can be happy.



1. Never stops learning! Always keep an open mind. Learning is fun, and this is the only eternal way to keep you energized, young and living your life as wide as possible, as colorful as possible! I am one who loves to learn because I like to know more, I'm not smart but it excites me when I get to know new things though it might have nothing to do with my works or living, and explore on territory which is beyond my knowledge...and the definition of learning need to be carry to a wider context; traveling, reading, net surfing, attending course, socializing with people....You might feel like going on a trip to a total unfamiliar place, you might wanted to start to learn swimming, you might think of taking up your camera to see what you can do about it in capturing your life, you might want to challenge yourself with a hiking trip, you might feel like pick up a book on science and starts to immerse in the wonder of universe! There is just so much on the list to learn, and have fun of! It's a matter of attitude: an open mind keeps you learning just anything, anytime, anywhere! "Keep yourself curious as a kid and you are gonna be happy as them"




2. Smile, it's your day!  Life is never smooth, and nobody can live a happy ever life as in the fairy tales. But you gotta believe in the power of SMILE! As we always talk of positive thinking, and a smile is the best way to kick start the mode and pull ourselves from dark part of ourselves. Do you have to force yourself to smile? and how about when we are feeling very bad? Think of the happy moment you had in your life: it can be wonderful trip you had, it can be your mum's cooking, it can be something excites you recently in your job, it can be a coming event which you have awaited so long, it can be a song which brings back a lot of past happy memories....How bad can your problems be if you have gone through so much. Let's smile everyday, everything's gonna be OK! Remember, we cannot escape from darkness but we can always bring in sunshine to light up the darkness! 


3. Sleep well, eat well & move your body! I found that sleep deficiency greatly affects our focus of life, makes us perform badly in everything in our live, crippled our ability to handle crisis, and the fluctuation of emotion towards things and people is greater when we didn't manage to rest well. Usually when I find myself having a bad mood, is most probably I have been sleeping less that time! On the other side, to eat well makes us feel happy and stay healthy. It will be a great emotion booster when you can eat heartily, and with friends or family is even better! Of course, I'm not suggesting you to eat junk food which is so unhealthy and gonna drag you down further. All in all, eat heartily, have a good night sleep and you are all charge up to handle your problems! 



4. Fear not, I'm the hero of my life! I think we all living in the age of fear. It's not only disasters getting more and more frequent, the whole generation is having less ability to handle uncertainties of life including losing job or someone we loved, unable to achieve what we want, unable to protect those we once own in our life. All kind of uncertainties surround us, as if we are living in the end of the world! Aren't we already living in a much civilized, developed world, why are we still feeling much threatened and insecure? Yes, we are living in this generation which is complicated by ourselves, we created this troubled world! Out of this mess, there seems to be only one way out : Fear not! Sometime I feel doubted about my choice, sometime I feel hesitate to talk, sometime i worried I cannot handle my problems; all these fear are of some reasons but it is all because we are afraid making mistakes, and we are afraid of taking up the consequences after taking some risks. "All is well! Our hearts get panic and fear easily" We know this feeling is actually playing with our heart, so we should not be taken away by this silly feeling! Go do it, get it started and it will have its way. If life is show, we will be the hero of our life who stand up from difficulties and make them as a thrilling chapter of our life story!



5. Appreciate relationship. Thanks to people who comes to our life: our parents, our sibling, our classmates, our friends, our colleagues, our superior. Perhaps as a human nothing is more important to have these people, so spend your time to building up a good relationship towards those around you. It would be so meaningful and bring joys when you can brings warmth and security to your family, when you encourage your friends and colleagues who feel demoralized, when you support your boss to grow a stronger business, when you give a helping hand to a someone who is in need. If you are willing to give, you are already get the richness of life.





6. Hopes, it's our choice to make them happen! We all have dreams, and they are needed to keep us moving gradually to a better place. Make them happen! One thing I agreed a lot on my current employer is the attitude we handle our life can make changes to our life. Be positive or negative, both can gives totally different outcome to our life. The key attitudes are: Take upsets/critics positively, keep an open mind to assess opportunities, and always be proactive and persistent in approaching people and problems. " A brick wall is to not to stop us. It is to test how badly we want get to the other side of it to get what we want."


Can you smile like this everyday? LOL= laugh out loud= live out loud

So how? Guess I'm gonna benchmark my life from today onwards with these 6 criterion and start by making small steps, you? Opps, i miss out an important point, Be honest with yourself whenever you are lost!
Haha, and that makes the 7th point!


Cheers!


With love, Kayne


 










Monday, March 28, 2011

i shall stand up again

Well, i admit i am not feeling so good tonight
Several things occur almost at one time
And i started to think about 2011 onwards, what a person i will become
Life can be simple and it can be tough too
we eat to live, but our life is not just about feeding ourselves
we want more, but we may not get it in the end
To me, i want a fulfilling engineering job but i don't have the chance after much hurdles 
I take pride in my own abilities but my confidence is tampered again and again by failures
I try to lead a simple life but i can't see my future 
I try to be cheerful as a sun bringing warmth to others but recently i seem back to the darker side
Obstacles test a man, whether he really want it
I feel tired, do anyone understand that?
I am still weak when it comes to uncertainties, when I loss my idea of where to go after being turn down
Can't you the glimmers in my eyes? The one with passion, wanting to start again?
For a year, nobody sees that 
and I'm still writing empty message here which brings me nowhere
What's wrong? 

Oh, Shed some lights on me
I'm not going to be defeated but I need to check myself
Of where I'm heading
Sad is not the way and I do not have time for that, life is short
I will find my way out, to a happy one, a meaningful one
cheers and bless my family and firends









Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Review, a peaceful night

Argh, isn't that I said I wanna post up my tenth post before year 2011, looks like i failed!

I just got so much feeling after reading a blog of my friends, to summarise my year 2010 which is just 2 days left from now.

Year 2010, a year full of story to me

Jan & Feb- Busy with plant design, i was very lackadaisical with my team mates at first and time just passed at lighting speed within these 2 months with so many works from that single subject. Class schedule was the most empty in my 4 years, yet it was full of meeting meeting and meeting all the time, boring somwtime! Anyway, been to DongChanXi in Jenjarom with my dearest coursemates during CNY, I treasure it so much as that was the last trip we can be together (i knew it!) And few of us also went to sunway singK, yes that is the last time we sang together too.



Mac &  Apr- Meeting reached its peak season during this period, almost crazy looking at the calendar and the snail progress of our work. Some coursemates starts to plan their job after graduation, well, i did but it all turned out to be nothing. Last week of our days in UTM, we made the once and ever photo session for us and snapped some precious photos together....."the more we get together, together together, the more we get together, the merrier will be"......althought it rained heavily that day and we cant get to other place than fkkksa,  we were still happy shooting. Tht's the spirit of my dear coursemates, acting always, loving always, sharing the happiness always, and laugh whenever we get together! Miss you guys, tht puts a stop to our life in UTM after 4 years living together!



May & Jun- May is the most beautiful month so far in my life coz i finally made it to Taiwan! it was definitely an unforgettable one! afterall it was finally a long break from university, and most meaningful part of this trip is that we planned it since early of this year (it nearly dies initially, luckily it didn't), and this trip is amazing coz we really made full use of every seconds we had there, packed but just feel satisfied with that first self-planned oversea trip!



Jun & July- Well, back to normal life. Reality is cruel, sat at home looking for job isn't really a good time.I read papers every weekends, chat with friends about job opening in msn, surf job recruitment site all the time, making trips here and there for interview....Days are counted like years, really suffering!I helped out at my parents stall, thinking that i should treasure my time at home but my parents certainly more anxious than me seeing me unable to get myself employed. I defend my stand, for that i want is to find a job i like but then i was always bombard by so much pressure and it ends up in arguement with them. I really feel that they don't know what i want and honestly I even hate them forcing me to simply go for any job and i made noise to them. And they keep quiet from then, but it turned me into all kind of guiltiness this time. When I think back, i also never think from their point of view, how can i only think of myself? Mid of july, i got my current job. A job which I don't really like but understanding the situation now, i go for it until now. I know what drives me in work now is financial support to me and some to my parents, as i knw their job is 10 times more tiring than mine. I should be thinking of them too, not just about me alone.



Aug- Sept- My first birthday with no celebration from anyone, feel a bit sad but that i guess that is gonna repeat until i got someone willing to accompany me as a partner, so i gotta enjoy it also. for my work, well, underwent some adversity which I cannot handle my boss and colleagues well. And more people left one after one from my work place, making me even doubtful of myself. nevertheless, life still goes on, i didn't manage to do anything with it eventhough i did tried sometime. the big event in Sept - my convocation! after 4 years, no, it should be after 17 years of education, I've finally step up on the stage and complete my Degree...I remembered every moment in the iskandar hall, especially when there were bubbles flying in air and the joyous songs with unknown title, wow! and i nearly burst into tears at that moment when i got the scroll at stage! After that, my journey in utm was drawn to an official end.



Sept-Oct: Argh, life's getting more and more boring and hostel was getting emptier as more people left for other jobs. For several times when i walk back alone amongst the crowd of foreign workers, i really wanna shout out: why am i here?! anyway after much adjustment in myself, i started get the hook on my job, so everything still wtihin my control so far. Weekends were the most awaiting time coz there will always be outing to malls, visiting friends and sister, or back hometown, yeah! Oh ya, that was also the time i got to know a guy in facebook who inspire me a lot with his blog, and from then i list out my list of dreams. Life will been never the same when you have something to pursue =)


Nov- Dec: Nov been going on a short tour to Ipoh, had a lot of fun there! Nice food, nice stay, fresher air, new train and of coz, good friends around made the trip perfect! As for X'mas, I brought my family for outing for the first time! it was not the best one and a bit unorganized since it was my first time i went to those place too, but what I felt is that i really miss my home and my parents ever since i started to work, it has never been like this before!!! thts why i really treasure tht short trip, and i was glad i finally can pay for a decent meal for family with my own money, wink !

Today I just hand up my evaluation form for confirmation, it marks the end of this year but why I wan not so happy with it?? and to mark it more saddening, I lost my new handphone out of carelessness yesterday, and been emo-ing the whole night before. And the kind of strange feeling arise again and again, honestly I'm not expecting anything in year 2011, why? What is missing in my heart actually?


Year 2011 is sure gonna be a year much tougher for me, and many decisions i need to make, many risk i need to take and more responsibilities i gotta bear. May God bless me with all the strength and I'll put myself at higher peak in my life next year! =)

With love,
Ken

Thursday, November 25, 2010

those which doesnt kill makes us stronger!

i was listening to hebe's new song, struck by a line in the song 死不了 就还好
n i tot of wat melissa once wrote in facebook comment : those which doesnt kill makes us stronger!!
wat a stunning phrase
once inject this to your heart when you are weak, u will feel alive again!

X X X X X X


Few days ago i was chatting with a fren via msn
only to knw about her predicament, whc was surprising cos she never mentioned to me (maybe we r not very close before, lol)
but luckily she already pull thru it, which i think isnt easy
being a lone ranger can be difficult to stay motivated all the time
especially everything, everyone around seem so discouraging to you
you cried everyday, wake up with fear of facing a new day
it's understandable, coz i've been there before, being engulfed by emotion, live in darkness
i admire her courage, to cry to let out the bad emotion
and to find ways to handle her emotion better, n of cos that helps her to keep her job done better
finding her passion to LIVEmas a true soul

X  X X X X X

i always think crying is not a bad way to release your fear, your sadness
take it positive          crying isnt a sign of weakness
as i believe we see clearer after we cry
take it positive          thats the side of fence where i choose to stand by
those who scolded u make u having better tolerance with evil tougue
those who fails you makes be more prepared next time
those that annoys you now make u realised what and who you really cherish in your life


Let go if you dun feel it belongs to you, hold tight if that is wat u shud cherish n wat u're pursuing


With love,
Ken

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

dreams II

Just browse through the job advertisement lisitng in mail box
so many, and I'm lazy to have a look
tired? yes
but i think lazy is the root cause why i choose to go FB and msn-ing, troll talking instead on jobs

sometime i ask myself, what's my direction
it's fine i stay here learn on handling problems, handling people
but how long should i stay here
ya, im afraid to step out coz i knw the pay might not be high, the life might be tougher
ha, pathetic, so timid at such a young age
after 3 ppl left since i moved in
wat's actually left is emptiness

time is late
tomorrow is another day
so routine, repetitive, and dull
some how my dreams are set
and dreams keep me alive, fuel me work my best to realised it
thts why when im struggling with boredom i think of my dreams
they have to realised! and even better, I will expand the list!

At the age of 30 years old

flew to 10 most wanted country across the world
became a fit metrosexual guy
having a memoir recording my life
having a soul devotion
play well a musical instrument
be good in a sports
find out wat i wanna do for the rest of my life
experienced the most fruitful engineering task
having 10 foreign country friends in my network

I'm suprise
to think that i had actually so many dreams!
it never actually formed in my life before
not until now when i wrote down
at this moment i knw, im not empty
i have dreams to power me!

God, lead me *wink

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Dreams

it's another weary night
how many nights before were like this, tonight is no different than previous nights
tired....exhausted....sometime even stressed, depressed
i know i know
this is common 
as im fresh to this working world
it is common i find a bit hard to breath within this thin air around me
when i walk alone back from work   mostly along the dark alley
i feel insecure at times 
why im feeling this? should i be here? when should i go? where's my dream and courage?
questions that never been answered repeat in mind
i remind of my dream to travel around the world
sometime i think it is a silly dream...travel around world? i lack the money and time
and then i start to envy of pilots, fight attendants
reading blogs that travels around many places which i wish i have been there
if i never been here            my dreams will never been enlighten
being engineer, sorry i don't really feel i'm one at the moment, or maybe forever
where should i put myself, where i can feel happy? where i can be useful?
after years the answer is still not sought   and i continue to cheat myself   as a dumb
I need to find my courage hidden beneath myself      
to free myself from shyness and fear
to set myself free and go after my dream